Entries for August, 2007
forbidden. she's the hardest thing to forget. i can't 'cause i don't want. and i'm making silly things to keep her off of my mind. we both live in our imaginations though it's killing us, still we're nursing the pain of this unforbidden thing. i hate myself for being the very reason why she's suffering this kind of situation. damn! t'was all my fault. i can't bear the way i am treating her. it's killing me, if she would only know.
damn, she don't deserve someone like me!
{ music } the bird and the worm- the used
{ book } her text messages.
{ show } your anino.
{ mood } inaantok na di makatulog.
Written by pochoy at 12:39 AM post. Filed under Thawed Melancholies.
" We can put back the pieces but, I know, they just might not fit the same."
{ music } Standing on the Edge of Summer - Thursday
{ book } your comments.
{ show } your footsteps.
{ mood } uncomfortable
Written by pochoy at 06:03 PM as afavorite: post. Filed under Thawed Melancholies.
I can't take my eyes off of you! Would you mind giving them back to me?
{ music } Angels Cry - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
{ book } your mind.
{ mood } melancholic.
Written by pochoy at 07:32 PM post.
"In a world where what we want is only what we want until it's ours."
I just realized that I was too afraid to have a different level of commitment. I was too afraid to show affection for I, myself, don't even know what affection or fuc**** evol really is. I am egoistic. insensitive. immature. indecisive. coward! And I drastically hate myself for that.
{ music } Calling All Angels - Train
{ book } empty floors of life.
{ mood } alone.
Written by pochoy at 07:47 PM post. Filed under Thawed Melancholies.
I never felt alone 'til I met you...
I took for granted you were with me.
I breathe by your looks and you look right through me...
{ music } Deep Inside of You - 3eB
{ book } thoughts of yesterday.
{ mood } weird
Written by pochoy at 08:49 PM post. Filed under Frozen Resilient Hopes.
Beautiful dawn. It really pains me to know that we're both trapped in this kind of situation. Existing apart from each other.
Beautiful dawn. Will I always be chasing the time? keeping myself so busy for me to somehow forget the melancholies of you being attached to somebody else.
Beautiful dawn. Will you always be a dawn and me, as a dusk? Why can't we just both exist together?
and so it is...
{ music } Cry - James Blunt
{ book } your letters.
{ show } the dawn.
{ mood } alone and tired.
Written by pochoy at 06:59 PM post.
It was the best night, midnight of my life. We were lovers, almost. Unforbidden lovers. If only there were no contradictions. Call me selfish but I won't let life pass me by again.
{ music } The Secret's in the Telling - Dashboard Confessional
{ show } you.
{ mood } inexplicable.
Written by pochoy at 07:59 PM post. Filed under Frozen Resilient Hopes.