It's been 4 years now, almost, since I first stepped in at college. It was one of the most freaking thing that I have ever done, considering that I had to start a new different stage of my life with myself alone.

I was so young and innocent, maybe, that day that I was not even able to realize how complicated things really are. how complicated they are than what I've expected.

I was changed. My thoughts, my beliefs, my perspectives. They were all changed. I didn't know what to do with myself, of what I should become, of what I would like to become.

But things changed positively, I guess. Our professor hates those words but I don't give a damn. I like using those for I am always uncertain about things. And there's only one thing that I want to be certain, I wanna change myself. For the past years, I have been so uncertain with the things that I do, with the things that I deal with. I need a little piece of certainty. I wanted to become myself more rather than becoming somebody else. I want a certain direction, a path that would direct me to the certainty of my future. But following that path, I realized, isn't that easy.

I've been torned apart. broken. I've almost given up. fortunately, I did not. and maybe, I would not. never.

{ music } The Standard Lines - Dashboard Confessional

Written by pochoy at 03:08 PM post.

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