How could i be this weak?
I tried to kill it. God knows how much I tried. But it won't stop.
I call your name in silence. I cry in silence. I suffer in silence. I miss you in silence.
Somebody save me.
Written by soulsmoker at 06:18 PM post. Filed under my sweetest downfall.
i learned that i can live without you but just do not want to.
i learned that you are a beautiful blue sky in summer, untainted.
i learned that you are the wind that makes the brown leaves fall from their branches, gentle.
i learned that you are the silence of old corridor halls, full of memories.
i learned that you are the noise of children laughing, euphoric.
there is no point denying that i love you.
i learned that my love for you is beyond social expectations.
i learned that my love for you does not entail ownership.
i learned that my love for you transcends cliche.
i learned that being away for awhile makes me love you more.
i learned that i may get hurt in the process but will still persevere.
i learned that i love you enough to be there for you but will give you the freedom to be happy.
there are no more rules with how i feel.
i learned that you are the stories at the back of my heart, waiting to be written.
i learned that you are the unforgiving rain which i want to die with.
i learned that you are the only one person i would rather break my heart.
i learned that even if we are two parallel lines, i want to try to prove the equation that allowed us to meet.
these are my lessons;
but these are not enough to describe how you have changed me.
{ music } the series soundtrack
{ book } the god of small things again
{ show } CSI Miami
Written by soulsmoker at 06:25 PM post. Filed under my sweetest downfall.
shit! i hate my job!
shit! i didn't even look up to see you eye to eye when our paths crossed this afternoon.
shit! i need a new job or else i might go back home..
shit! i fuckin miss you..
which is which?
{ mood } annoyed
Written by soulsmoker at 12:22 AM post. Filed under hanging by a moment.